Submitted by SHILL on Nov. 6, 2018, 5:01 a.m.

A not to heroin- anon

Apologise in advanced if this upsets you, and this isn't me leaving you. It's just my thoughts on how I feel about things between us right now. And I want to honestly know how you feel as well.
I was going to bring this up last night but you seemed so happy and in such a wholesome mood and I didn't want to ruin it. But I've been thinking about this a lot for the past week or so and I need to say this. I don't know if I feel like this because of the mood I've been in recently and my mind is going crazy or because this is how I actually feel but I just don't think we should be together.
I mean, why are we even together in the first place? a couple nights ago you even told me yourself that things have been going down hill since we first met. It felt too good to be true, and that's because it was. I feel like you don't even want to know me, we can barely hold a conversation for more than a few minutes and it doesn't seem like you enjoy my company at all. And I just don't feel happy. So what's the point in continuing all of this if things have gotten this stale?
And I know you know things aren't going to go back to how they were. You made that stupid promise to me that you were going to change things, and everything was going to be good again but ever since then it feels like you've only been more distant.
I don't want to seem like an insensitive ass hole when I say this but I know that can't happen, because I don't see myself feeling how I once did. I know I'm never going to have those feelings for you again, ever since I first told you that I loved you I have only been feeling worse. And I think that was my biggest mistake, I knew I should have never gotten involved with you like this. I told myself the first time we spoke that I was going to be nothing more than a friend to you, and I feel our connection would have been much greater than it is now had we stayed just friends.
But I felt something special, so I stuck around to see what would happen and I ended up falling in love. But I just don't feel that spark anymore, and I doubt you do too.
I don't want you to be sad when you read this, I want you to take some time and actually think about this. Try and honestly tell me you're happy with how things have turned out. Because I know damn well you'd want to go back to that first week, and if it's to the point where we're already reminiscing on the past then I truly believe we just aren't meant to be together. And it may hurt to see me say this but I don't think you're as in love with me as you think. You're just latched onto the idea being with me.
And like I said earlier, this isn't me breaking up with you. I just want your opinion on everything I just said, I don't know if I just need some time alone or if I want things to be over but this is just driving me crazy.
For better or for worse this had to be said, so just think about this. Please
I'm sorry for everything I have put you through.

1 comment

  • SHILL Nov. 6, 2018

    Get some help bro. Really looks like a note to your girlfriend.